Confused Process.

(Week 4)

Hi all, I had thought that our peer review counted for a process post… But unbeknownst to me, it did not.

The tables have changed or perhaps I was sitting at the wrong table this whole time. Whatever the issue, I am here to sneakily write something about my process. It seems the Posiel website wants me to write about the audience I have imagined and how it has “informed [my] design and editorial decisions.” So, I am taking this opportunity to rant :).

Look, I’ll be honest. The audience I envision is whoever cares enough to look through this/stumble upon it, which is mostly me and I assume Lauren (Hi Lauren!).

My design is simple to make my surely annoying computing science posts more bearable and my editorial decisions come from a place of saying what comes to my mind first. It’s me at my snarkiest, and also maybe, definitely a place where I let my frustration from coding 12+ hours a day, 7 days a week roll into some other creative outlet, aka writing.

I like writing, I really do. This blog in particular has been a great stress release in my life. It is one of the only tethers keeping me at bay. The sweet siren call of my last few months in the entirety of my degree beckons me to not give a sh*t anymore, but for some reason, posiel pulls me back in to write away my frustrations of a 40% class average on our CMPT 454 midterm. In your opinion, is that just a hard midterm or a teaching problem?

Regarding 454, do I WANT to build a DBMS from near scratch? No. Am I passionate about it? No. Did I ignore the professor’s warnings about not taking the course if I didn’t find it naturally interesting? Yes. Did I take it thinking it would be a clear extension of CMPT 354 and instead am finding it to be one of the harder courses in my whole degree by accident? Sadly, also yes.

Alas, this is the life I chose, and what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger realize how cruel the world really is.

Anyway, end of rant. I don’t know how else to address the topic because I tried my best to be honest and concise. I make what I make for me because it’s cathartic in some weird way, and if it works for others, that’s great! If it doesn’t work for certain people, that’s ok too. Just being me.

Anyhow, I think I’m going to ponder on this prompt as the weeks come and try to come up with a more rounded answer as I continue my tired tech rants.



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